i am afraid of losing him to others girls.
i am afraid that he would ignore me totally one day .
i am afraid that you choose to leave me one day .
i am afraid that you would fall in love with someone else .
i am afraid of you making my heart bleed.
i am afraid of crying just cos i lost you.
he promised that he would leave me . i trusted him .
today , he has no time for me now .
if he accompany me his friends would say he pangsei them . did i put him into a difficult spot ?
if i did not happen to appear in his life , things wouldnt be like that . i should have pay closer to attention to you in the first place . i was selfish . i should not be like that .
am i in a book of fairytale and i happen to be in part of it or would i be the one who will live happily ever after with him ? i am not trying to make a whole entire list of complains of you , i just want you to be happy everyday . it is how you want to decide now . i shall respect you with what choices you come out . if you need time , i can give you . i am trying my best to take control of this relationship so that we wouldnt argue over small matters , i just want to make sure this relationship would last long . i love you that why i want to have a good relationship with you . melvin , i am sorry for hurting you in the past . today when i text you , i was acting calm cos if i ever were to argue you back things were to get worst .