fuck die that person larh .disliking forever .
texting baby today , he sure do make my day brighten up :) ♥

i think simin was right , attitude problems . been playing and communicating with my girlf . oh ya , got my hair cut . being forced one :/

frankly speaking , i think thy have changed after everything . starting to throw their friends aside not like last time , caring for your friends.

things changes after that day , the distance bewteen you and me got further .

meeting baby tml :)

oh gosh history project tml hand in and must present to teacher . sucks

some people do really love to copy what i say . hate those people .

texting loh today :) chit chatting loads and loads of crap with bi .
jiayuan been bonding with me this few days . sharing my feeling with her and laughing out loud with her . i am going to earn alot money to bulid a house for in other country which i can admire the stars at night with him :) few more days , 6 months le .
and i think i seriously need more bonding with friends . i mean the girls larh . need more time talking and laughing with them .

should i bother about things ?

changing a new life which only have happiness in it . well sort of talk things out with friends today so everything is fine now .

why are you always having friends disturbing us when we are talking ? not only one friend but is many friends . i not liking it . i want have my own time with you and that's you .
but speaking i did spend more time with ♥loh this few days. forgetting the past maybe better. i want to go around the world with him

well , i have decided to take back my words.

i am an epic failure from this point of view , i just cant do anything correct. omg, i am terribly sorry. can i be given the time machine to adjust back what happen ? i want back my happy past with you and that is what i want . time time time , can i hab 48 hours a day and he could spent 24 hours with me ? i just want to have time with you even if it was a minute of talk with you i am happy already . can i be able to do that ? i am trying

i am trying to be prefect in this reltionship.

meetin simin tml mng , going to subcentre for agi training . ah ma soh has to stroll to subcentre :D she has been giving me flying kisses this few days :D well , she has been there for me all the while . talking to me rubbish and making me laugh max at times . random .

erm erm , yunrong has been talking abt reltionship matters with me . chit chat most time in lesson .
i think my blog is making me in more trouble .should i delete my blog ?

i am really regretting what i did lots now . i am really sorry . i am feeling myself useless cos i am unable to make you feel happy being with me . i only hurt you . your decision now , i shall respect it .

a lier huh ? fine .
i am tired of holding on things now . is letting go the best way ? returing your freedom maybe is better for you barh . sighs . i am tired of this things . is a relationship suppose to be like this ? people advice me , people said me but i choose to do it another way . i dont deserve being treated it like that way. ouch it is hurting me lots. this or that i do will affect everyone . i think i am not stopping you aldy .
well , went jp with chu , seow and goh today . hab donuts and seow feed me until my face dirty :D cute max:D

i am loving the way now .
everything is like a sweet dream to me , i cant believe it .
well been sleeping in class this few days . feeling tired easily .
we finally have the chance to talk on the phone , i like this way .
we finally able to see each other and have a long talk , i like it this way.
smiling with yunrong due to something :D
humpff, stupid chia and aw , been making me with markers and slapping each other face . laugh max . well , not listening to chinese lesson ever since cher change into some china cher . most of the time talking rubbish in class with people and someone even called me a rabbit . LOL! tml can see baby pig wearing his purple yog shirt :0
tml got yog for me and friends see people swimming . :D jiahong was utterly crapping abt people seeing me . LOLS :D 9 plus den go home tml . should i ask him wait cos he told me he is scare to wait for me in school due to 7th month . cute max .

i think i am hating myself for doing this thing .
why did you say you want it ? AWW! i am confused now but i sure do need that talk to you . its important . i have no choice but to do this . humpff , should i be stubborn and stick on to the choice which i have decided ? or should a another chance be given . i have got to say , love do hurts people alot but love do change people too . my nightmare is happening to me and is true. ignoring , not talking to me in school . wow so this is the outcome now . i thought i have talk things out that day but actually i was making myself blinded up with the facts . truth is i have to wait . people told me before giving up , think back what made you continue living on . i continued living cos i love him . but am i suppose to give it up now ? seow ask me to dont think about anything first . text her night .
chia was making me pissed off today . but sure did made me laugh out loud . aw and tan did too . by slapping each others face . actually feeling tons btr now . seow i need to hear your voice best talker :D

i am afraid of losing him to others girls.
i am afraid that he would ignore me totally one day .
i am afraid that you choose to leave me one day .
i am afraid that you would fall in love with someone else .
i am afraid of you making my heart bleed.
i am afraid of crying just cos i lost you.
he promised that he would leave me . i trusted him .
today , he has no time for me now .
if he accompany me his friends would say he pangsei them . did i put him into a difficult spot ?
if i did not happen to appear in his life , things wouldnt be like that . i should have pay closer to attention to you in the first place . i was selfish . i should not be like that .
am i in a book of fairytale and i happen to be in part of it or would i be the one who will live happily ever after with him ? i am not trying to make a whole entire list of complains of you , i just want you to be happy everyday . it is how you want to decide now . i shall respect you with what choices you come out . if you need time , i can give you . i am trying my best to take control of this relationship so that we wouldnt argue over small matters , i just want to make sure this relationship would last long . i love you that why i want to have a good relationship with you . melvin , i am sorry for hurting you in the past . today when i text you , i was acting calm cos if i ever were to argue you back things were to get worst .

hey hey hey . staying at home today due to fever . so boring , i want to talk to someone and play with somebody . i miss my girlf so much , cant talk to her today . well , what i can only is to sleep. most of the people were saying i was crying cos my eyes were red . monster loh also called me reindeer . omg , he was so happy yesterday lorh . keep making funny things and calling me names . first , monster . second , pig , third , reindeer . stupid boy :p text you also never reply , text her now she also never reply. caring ?
the past is the past , there is no turning back for what i did to you .

can you faster come back my ah gong loh ? i am feeling terrible without you , faster come back so i can see you . ytd chit chat loads with jiayuan and as usual we did gossip about some stuff. he is going to come back home tml le. text him tml night .

yunrong , look at posivite side in everything , dont be sad. even no more frogs , you still have me as a good friend to care for you and to give you love in this friendship . if you sad next time , i pei you eat chocolate okay ? but hopefully you will not be sad . cheer up okay girl ?

melvin , i am waiting for you to come back from malaysia ! you should have pack me inside your bag den i can pei you what :D this 3 days i have to face eeyore and cant face you .i want hear your sweet voice so faster come back singapore . i missing you loads now .

msn kena virus le . so suckish ! gt to use ebuddy from now . saded !

he has gone to malaysia aldy . sure do miss him lots . text him from the morning till just now cos he has got to go . mummy and daddy bought new earpiece for me . yays my earpiece was like spoiled aldy lorh . ah gong loh , faster come back can ? i want to hear your jokes and see your smile :D how i wish there is a shooting star and i would want to wish that everything will goes well for me .
ltr still got tution gonna kick that jiayuan ass ! she bullyed me ytd , took my ugly photo . today i shall take my revenge le . MUAHAHAHA! i find that life is empty when there is no laughter to fill you up . it is the best if i could hear some laughter from you and you and you . tsk tsk .

i just wanted your care and that is it . nothing else , are you always that busy to chat with me on the phone or even to reply a text msg . i just dont get it why ? today 5 month and you did not even wish me . you were not like that in the past . in the past you would call me , chit chat with me on the phone for hours and now not even a minute . in the past you would text me happy whatever month but i dont get it from you this month .
jiayuan keep taking my ugly photos today while waiting for some people but in the end also never meet . wdf . got back my phone today . YAY ! i miss my phone ttm . took bus home with laiyeng and weixuan and kinda like gossiping some people :D tsk tsk . cute max .
he is going to malaysia tml le. am i going to miss him ? i dontknow. cant see anyone during this long holiday kinda bored lorh . i want to know so many things , what will the outcome of everything be ?
that junkeat and junhao really know how to disturb people lots lorh . omg ! jingwei i tink you need to get 10 bottle of eye drop to wash your eye :D is too dirty for you to see this kinda of things you see. played with junkeat phone :D

yesterday mum found out loads of things, she is now even suspecting me of having a boyf just cos i msg melvin alot . she just dont give me the privacy , even though she is my mum but she does has to respect me wat . if she wants to gain my respect why dont she respect my things in the first place .

cant meet bi anymore this few days and mummy is even keeping track of my steps every single day . i want to meet him but cant D: mng only when dad wake up den i can go to sch . wdh . i go sch early or not oso not her prob is i lose my sleep time not her what . come kpo me for what ? if she want to take my phone by all means just take it . that line is so pathetic , i dont even want it . i might as well take my prepaid . i can msg ppl even more .

mother mother mother , practically now know how to nag at me . she come home never call mummy she will ask you treat me transparent uh ? is not i want to complain larh but is just that enough is enough aldy . there is always a limit to everything . i tend to one ear i the other out but now according to what you scolded me ytd , i have enough of it aldy .

i want a listening ear for me but thanks to my friends they sure do brighten up my day with colours. but sadly when i need you so much now , you arent here for me at all .

well , i dont know if should i forgive you a not ? i tried but cant . the way you are acting now is just very weird towards me . i think maybe if we dont talk that is a better solution . i just dont feel like it. you think that me , yunrong and simin still your best but you have made us disappointed before . i am not ignoring you but just not talking to you as there is a weird kinda of feeling .

oh boy , who cares ?

i dont feel like talking to mum and dad this few days anymore . i just wanna to keep on laughing and laughing . i cant wait to learn more fancy drill during st john . is so cute can ?